Van Chitgo - The Art of Life

days go by
and still i think of you
days when i
couldnt live my life
without you

----days go by
(dirty vegas)

nope. im not as despondent and melancholic as you think. quite the contrary. the song hits home though. frustrated that i cant find that particular album anywhere. the musical explosion has given us troubles one could not have imagined 10 years ago. i mean , how can you ever have enough music in your life? yet i cant maintain the library....

switching gears. corporate was an interesting movie. the acting was delivered clinically by an ensemble cast and i respect kay kay as an actor. the man has talent. i respect bipasha basu for atleast attempting a role of some substance. too bad it was just an attempt. Nonetheless; a slick well made flick well worth a late night with a close friend...loudly and rudely laughing over scenes only we found humorous and stuffing our face with popcorn- much too salty for our liking.

orkut pisses me off and the insane conviction with which the masses swear by it turns me off even more. the friends request keep pouring in though. have to admit its got a bunch of people from nearly 8 years ago, a long long time....

ofcourse its all in perspective.

work is going well and offers new challenges constantly. switching gears once again, so very different from an @ atmosphere, from a UN atmosphere. fairly obvious you say. sure, but someones got to point out the obvious right ? enriching discussions ensue with people like bee who are bang in the middle (more like the kick off) of a new @ experience, relishing in the peaks and undoubtedly shivering in the lows- it is a ride. what can i say....the ride continues once you step out as well, you just take a bit more control and get to steer in a way far more sturdily then ever before. sure the 'real world' tag tends to irritate when your inside...we always heard 'its as real as you want it to be'. i see now how many times running away from reality was easier for many around me. the funny thing is, its not specific to @, allowing oneself a shell, a comfort level, a security blanket (like linus) is easy. you can grab it, with an outstretched hand, an uncurled palm.

close those fingers, make a fist. assertion was never something to feel guilty about.

i listen and enjoy the latest of progressive indian 'rock' music with the soothing sounds of advaita filling the room. the band is offering a chance for everyone out their to download some tracks- so go ahead and have a listen. i would reccommend it for sure. getting my hands on the entire cd this week. thanks rudy for introducing me to them.

I can see the light now
(shining through the shadows)
Dreams unravelled stories untold
(and visions yet unknown)

-lyrics from the song light by advaita.

time is so intense, it wipes clean images and memories of what could have been a yesterday in your mind. i remember this rolly polly guy called shaswat who used to bring cds of death and gothic metal to school (mp3s had become the rage then) to educate and exchange ; the 2 interspersing. i happened to stumble across the rock street journal online to get a 'dekho' on which bands were playing where, what do i see?
shaswat now writes and drums for a gothic death metal band called Narsil. its the same face, except with a gotie and fingers pointed out in the rock on symbol of rebellion. good on you mate. i remember he always wanted to do that. i remember i used to find the image quite funny:). not anymore....hope the band goes big.

i saw rudy perform live last night:) have been wanting to do that for some time now. missed the last one at dv8 due to a late night at work. 'half step down' had TCs rocking and some of the self compositions were fantastic. gigpad will keep me informed on the ever expanding rock scene in the capital. better late than never i always say:)

it was zuzka's bday 2 days ago and i forgot to wish her!:( belated happy bday zuzi, hope u had a fantastic day...know that i was thinking about you and all the conversations we had back in switz....miss it and will always cherish it.

i skirt the issues of the chaos all around us in the world today. the middle east is in chaos and the brink of all out war that we feared is very much at the forefront. what hits home worse though is the revelations behind the cowardly attack on the jewel of india- mumbai. the headlines scream "PM warns Pakistan....OR ELSE".

Or else? are we all suddenly in grade school again? or is it nice to make fun of bush's rhetoric (he shot my daddy, we got em etc) yet be insular to the growing aggression in ourselves. dont get me wrong. what happened in mumbai makes my blood boil, but threatening pakistan isnt going to help much. especially considering the fact that the continuous defense is going to be that senior levels of the armed forces and political set ups knew nothing about it. i mean musharraf 'dared' to ask for any help we wanted to 'crack' down on the terrorist insurgents right? what good is pointing fingers ? i dont have the answers, i doubt if the g8 meeting is going to cough up the answers either. the war on terrorism has a fundamental flaw in it. its a 'war' on terrorism. not a strategic tactical assault on the core of who these people really are. what there motivations are and why it has becomes so ridiculously simple to end human lives. why its become so ridiculously simple to want to end human lives.
understand the psyche. there is no money , there is no fame (except the gracious arms of allah waiting for the next suicide bomber to whisper his name in the second before pushing the button), there is but great glory in such a death. great glory.
so this is our 21st century world. large portions of young, dynamic, passionate and driven muslims enter madrasas and pick up guns for the glory of killing in the name of a scripture. the attack on mumbai is still largely inexplicable. it saddens me though to know that it comes one week after all chaos broke loose because a fanatical hindu leader took personally an idiotically rowdy act of desecration on a statue of his wife. a statue he had no right to build.
unmanaged anger, unchanneled aggression. more like misused resources in a country where passion and assertiveness need to be focussed on making this country better.

i met the 4th person from romax last night (karo), it was such a bout of nostalgia. 6 people got inspired to come to india after a 4 day conference with 179 germans and one desi. i feel honored when they meet me and thank me. even though i was embarassed to know that noone does 'kiddda' in @ india anymore.

capitol became orange room and then went back to capitol. the dj threw up some global underground, but u know its madness when the crowd goes ballistic on the 36 china town soundtrack. i smile to myself, put my hands up and let himesh take over:)....damn its good to be back in the motherland.
so so so good.

this has become one monstrous posting. about nothing in general.
thats about it from my end.
peace.
i mean it.

Posted by chitgo on Monday, July 17, 2006 at 7/17/2006 10:25:00 PM | Permalink